My Little world

Don't know if anyone looks at these anymore but i thought i would post an update.
So my last post was in April.. Just after exams
Well i had my 4 week placement at Kirkhill Primary in Primary 1 and totally loved it. The class were lovely and although i was shattered at the end of each day the kids made it worth it =D
After that summer started =D i spend 4 solid months with James and i loved it, it was great to spend all that time with him.
We went to Haven with his brother, brother's girlfriend, neice, nephews, mum and dad. That was quite fun. We then went to St Annes with my parents and sister. I also found out round about then that i had passed all my exams and would be able to get into second year =D
We did loads over the summer a couple of my favourite days out were to The Highland Wildlife Park and Blair Drummond Safari Park, they were both great days.
I have now been going out with James for 4 years which is really nice and 2 days after our anniversary type thing i turned 19... getting old :P 20 next year haha
I started back at uni on my birthday.. which sucked a bit but oh well. I will be in upper school (primary 6 or primary 7) this year at Miller Primary so that will be an experience.
James turned 20 in October and we had a Halloween party for his neice as a birthday party on saturday which was also fun.
All in all things have been good.. uni is tough and sometimes really crappy but i guess that is to be expected :P
I will be going up to see Katie in Aberdeen on Saturday which should be good, maybe go to the cinema and out for drinks. Fun Times =)
So yeah.. i think that is everything up to date right now :)

Woooooo exams are finally over!!!
free for 2 and a half weeks
happy times
:D

So, last nights sleep was terrible, woke up every two hours and then decided at half 7 to just stay awake and wait for my results, so at 8 oclock exactly i got the text
RMPS - A
Media Studies - B
Psychology - B

who would have ever thought that i would get anithing above a C in psychology lol

The best bit is though, i exceded the requirements to get into Strathclyde university (Jordanhill Campus) to do primary teaching
My place is confirmed!!

So it's off to uni in September, i feel so grown up haha

Bright eyes,
Burning like fire.
Bright eyes,
How can you close and fail?
How can the light that burned so brightly
Suddenly burn so pale?
Bright eyes.

I adore that song.

More and more of late i have been feeling that University isn't for me
I don't want another 4 years of stressful studying and exams..
Plus, it's just this feeling i have had in my gut for months now that i really just don't want to go.

I feel i have to though...
- if i want a good job
- to please my parents
- to be respected
- everyone is pressuring me to.

I don't know what to do..
I do know however that my parents would be dissapointed if i didnt go.
I just don't think i could stick it, even if i went i would prob end up dropping out,
I'm not ready for uni, i don't feel i would benefit from it, i would prefer to work for a few years, then maybe go back as a mature student.

I just feel so stressed :(

It is so hard to keep from showing how much i am really hurting.
I have to put on this happy front when i am at school when really i just want to lie in bed and cry.

The funeral is on saturday morning, and i've to go in the funeral car...
I'm so glad James will be here to support me when i get home.

Hugs are bad, they make me break down =(

This sucks

So damn upset.
I knew it was coming but that didnt make it any easier.

ok
well i am update because mairi pressured me to

Hmm.. well i got a job, at birthdays (crap pay) and i am having to work all weekend because of stupid mothers day and therefore i am missing a party at James' this weekend :( but he is coming to stay on friday night so thats okay

Got 2 of my prelims back, As in both
psychology was UGH enough said.

I dont know what else to write
im sleepy

So yes, i got an A in my RMPS prelim
i was so happy when i saw it haha

anyway, as stolen from Sarah

What Julia Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

Bit contradictory
but oh well :P

i'm bored
dont wana go to psychology tomorrow

This weekend was good
James came through on friday and we went to east kilbride to go bowling and took lisa coz we are nice like that, we then took lisa home and went to braehead where James bought me a top with Animal on it, a winnie the pooh toy holding a rose and an eeyore holding a rose. He is sooo sweet =)
Then yesterday we went to EK and had lunch and then bought chocolate from thorntons and just looked around, we also went to a pet shop, laughed at the hamsters and bought catnip. We then went home and watched lost, made my cat go crazy with catnip, then went to Ruth party, which was highly amusing, the drunk people may have fun but the sober people have fun watching the drunk people act like freaks. I saw people who i hadnt seen in ages and met a couple of new people, it was all good.
Today james and I went and got a subway then came home and watched more Lost.
Then he went home =(
At least i get to see him on friday after my prelim =D I can't wait

I strongly dislike his mum right now
she ruins everything
it's nothing to fucking do with her!

*snore*
i am sooo tired and shall be popping off to bed in about 3 minutes

so yes, update
i got my conditionals for teaching at strathclyde and i am so happy, the campus is really nice with grass n stuff.

um, i think everyone is getting pissed off at me about yearbook money but here is the thing, i dont do it for enjoyment, it aint a hobby for me, its making sure you are able to get a yearbook so stop being mean about it.

hmmm weekend
SEEING JAMES YAYAYAYAYAAAAAYYY
going to his aunts 50th birthday party and going to see sweeny todd, should be fucking awesome

then prelims start, oh joy of joys

i'm to tired to write anything else.
night

I really don't like you
thank god there are only a few months left of school.

on another note
fucking prelims!! bloody week on thursday is my first one and i am not best pleased.

just.. hurry up summer, i need out of that place.

so as of tonight my ipod fucking rocks.

i have music by the likes of vengaboys, afroman, aqua, backstreet boys etc

sometimes you just have to give in and listen to cheesy pop songs :P

The Curriculum for excellence is a new curriculum that will be coming into effect soon. It is one smooth coherent curriculum from 3-18 and will replace the 3-5 and the 5-14 curriculums. I aims to make all young people become successful learners, responsible citizens, effective contributors and confident individuals because obviously all these things are important in future goals, and one of the main priorities of the curriculum is to equip young people with the skills they need for future employment. it aims to encourage more learning through experience and also to balance out academic and vocational subjects as some people may feel further education is not for them and would like to go down a vocational route, this curriculum offers more choice and opportunities to suit individual needs. The curriculum would be easier on the teachers and also more fun for the students.
There will be different achievement levels in the curriculum for excellence,
Early - which should be obtained by end of pre school/p1
first - which should be achieved by the end of p4
second which should be achieved by the end of p7
third and fourth which should be achieved in s1-s3
and finally senior which should be achieved in s4-s6
however with all of these levels they may be achieved slightly earlier depending on the individual. This helps the children to progress at an appropriate pace but will also challenge them slightly to set higher expectations.

The curriculum for excellence is basically a wider definition of how and what children should learn.


so yeah, interview on wednesday haha
i now know about the curriculum for excellence.

got back 2 replies from ucas, both from paisley

Primary education - unsuccessful :(
Psychology - Conditional

So.. update time

I passed my RMPS nab, 38 out of 40
Had a media nab today, i think i've passed it..
Christmas in less than two weeks
I really cannot be bothered with school.
Although the dance tomorrow should be okay.

It actually scares me how much my attitude in life has changed, how much I have changed yet how much i mask it..
I'm not ashamed of who i am now, infact i like who i am now, but i just need to get through the joke that is school and then i am free.
I dunno.. i just feel like.. certain things are expected of me and i have to act in certain ways. I dont know how to feel,
i don't know what to do.

I don't know if you can see
The changes that have come over me
In these last few days I've been afraid
That I might drift away